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Autumn

2008-05-13T04:40:00.000-07:00

With autumn here, everything is supposed to beautiful. BUT I guess just like autumn too leaves start littering the pavements making the whole street a whirling mess when the wind blows. I guess you could say that this is totally parallel to whats happening in my life right now. There have been some pretty good memories with my housemates, autumn fest, etc. but things are happening that is making me quite pissed. I guess whatever nonsense that is happening will die down soon HOPEFULLY. ARGH! What’s wrong with the world people! I honestly have the urge to just go to the beach and scream my lungs out at moments like these. It’s really these situations that test your patience and remind you WWJD. I know its so clichéd but maybe the reason why it’s said so much is because the principle behind it is actually true. Keep it simple people- life as it is complicated enough :) I’m fine la. Just a lil frustrated at life on an occasional tuesday.

life's reflective moments

2008-05-09T03:31:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you go around in live worrying about trivial stuff that seem so important to you (when its really not) that you need something to wake you up to reality. That is exactly what happened today. I was just going around my daily routine- school, house 3 gossip sessions, friends, and worrying about other stuff when I first heard from nikolai that Vanessa burst her blood vessel in her brain and is in a coma. I seriously thought he was shitting me when he first told me but just moments later I got another message from Rachel telling me the same thing. It was really a “WHAT?!” moment. It was pretty sudden and quite surreal. I’m still in a state where reality hasn’t really sunk in yet but I know the seriousness of the situation. I mean waking up from a coma can take years. You’ll never really know when the person will wake up and if she wakes up normal and healthy again. I think when we finally get to see her in the hospital then will reality sink in. It’s just really VERY sudden and I can’t even imagine how her parents are feeling right now. It’s these kind of moments that really make me realize how fragile life really is. You can be well one moment, but the next moment, you're in the grey area floating between life and death. I really hope she wakes up fast and she’ll be well soon. Our prayers are with you Vanessa.

2008-04-16T19:38:00.000-07:00

Its quite unbelievable that term 2 has started already. And this term i have made up my mind to... STUDY! haha. Some of my house-mates don't believe it'd last but oh wells. lets see how it goes:)
if all goes as planned i'll be more occupied this term. in a few days time (i think) i'll be going to philip's island for planet uni camp! i'm quite excited about it AND its a miracle itself that i'm going. I guess many things have happened and i just wish for things to be less awkward.

ANYWAYS, TO ALL MY FRIENDS IN SINGAPORE, I MISS YOUU!!!!

2008-04-13T23:08:00.000-07:00

Life sometimes surprises you in many ways. Like how recieving certain vibes can make you feel the complete opposite of of what you were feeling just seconds ago. Its just so weird that what you thought was real is actually further from the truth than you can imagine. Everything's still pretty hazy but i think i know what is going on.

2008-03-30T03:58:00.000-07:00

Today has been an emo but reflective day. I woke up this morning to realize that almost half of my house mates and probably half of palmerston has gone back or is going back to s’pore. So I began missing Singapore really badly esp. after I talked to my best friend on msn last night. We miss each other like hell and it sucks that we can only talk over msn and can’t chill at starbucks or each others house. There’s so many things I wanna tell her but it’s so hard cause its just different when we’re not talking face to face. I actually missed s’pore (and the people there) so much that I made a list of things to eat when I get back. And guess what? PRATA is on the top of my food list! Haha. I really didn’t think I would miss home so much. ANYWAY… the reflective part of the day happened after and probably also during the service in church. All this while in Australia I always felt that ever since I left s’pore I’ve been drifting away from God. There’s never been revelation in the sermons I hear directed at what I’m going thru (even tho the sermons are superb). but today was different. I really felt that whatever happened today was God’s response to whatever I’m going thru and it’s really good because I finally feel that I’m on track with him again, like I’m in the right place again. As grace’s shirt says “peace now” :)

10 degree

2008-02-28T03:02:00.000-08:00

I had school today at 9 in the morning and i had to get up in the freezing cold. It wasn't fun at all. It was 10 degrees in the morning and to make it worse it was raining and i had to walk to school which wasn't exactly very near to where i stay. Psych lessons made up for the shitty morning tho. It was so interesting. We learnt why men rape, about road rage and also this very new mental disorder called munchausen by proxy. its an disorder that usually affects mothers. They would harm their newborns not by bashing them or what ever but by making them injest sharp objects like razor blades, scissors, or even rat poison. psychologist are still not sure why they do that but they are guessing that these people do such things cause they crave attention esp. medical attention. Its really intruging. I don't understand why anyone would want to do that to a newborn, much less their own child. My Internet is really bad so i cant upload pics just yet. I will when its less screwy.

2008-02-25T02:54:00.000-08:00

School officially starts today but i only had one lecture and i was done for the day. So as you can guess my day wasn't exactly "happening". Anyways i just slacked for a while, ordered my books, and waited for my friends to come home. b/c they too were bored we went to the park & school, and started cam-whoring. (will upload the pics tmrw). Oh and before i forget i have a special request from abel to upload the pics 33A took while sending me off.

I love them all, every single one of them

The thorn among the roses

the rose among the thorns (haha, sorry for being so shameless)

Dramatic wake-up call

2008-02-23T02:40:00.000-08:00

Today started off pretty dramatically. Firstly my friend and i overslept and her parents alr reached our place ready to bring us to ikea. Then while i was changing, i felt this fat thing drop on my head. So i just thought i was a fly and waved it off, but it wouldn't stop bugging me so i stared at where i thought it came from. To my horror i realized that the thing that was bothering me wasnt a fly but water leaking from my ceiling. Not only was water leaking from my ceiling there was a hole in the ceiling and it looked like the ceiling was about to collapse.

my leaking ceiling

it was just one or 2 drops initially but it slowly became worse...

and even worse...

and when it finally stopped, it looked like this...

pretty big crack huh?

Anyway after all the drama was done, the day was pretty normal. We (Me, ann, and yaoqi) went with anne's parents to this restaurant called trotters. Food was pretty filling, it was alright but I liked the interior design of the shop tho.

Ann, Yaoqi, Me

Mom, i'm drinking this... hahaha

So, thats pretty much what happened on a semi- eventful saturday.

2008-02-22T04:25:00.000-08:00

oh SHIT... i just know it in my guts that even if its not this year, i'll get a tongue piercing or some other piercing next year or something. My mom is totally gna kill me if she finds out. I know that i shouldn't "defile the body that God has given me" (quote from ann) and all but shit la, tongue peircing is damn pretty. Aiya this is shitty la. I just hope i'll be a wussy and back out. Anyways today we had what was supposed to be "singaporean food". Man... it was the most disgusting Singaporean food i ever ate. Ironically, my housemates and i just wolfed it down. It was like we were some child dying from hunger or something. I guess its the closest we can get to home.

Me and my lesbian friend drinking our nuptial wine
at the sucky Singapore restaurant (For the naive who don't know, i'm just kidding)

We had ice-cream for dessert l8ter on. it was SO GOOD. but i know its going straight down to the thighs so... im gna go for a jog tmrw morning:) lets see if i stick to it.

Phrase of the week: Hell to the yea. (sorry, i know its super random)

2008-02-21T02:08:00.000-08:00

I just came back from a walk around where i live and can i just say that it is so beautiful. I guess Melbourne is really a place that you'll be able to fall in love with. In the evening esp, when its so quaint and quiet you just really see what peace is and just really appreciate it. Its so different from the hustle and bustle of Singapore. Trinity is great and i guess i can say that God has really answered my prayers of being surrounded by good friends that'll support me. Can't thank him enough for it. Its still orientation tho so its still pretty slack. i don't know how it'd be like when school starts but i hope i'll be focused and just aim to do well. The past few days have been a ride, I've got some really insane and happy moments as well as some not so good moments.
When my friends' parents were here i kinda like just felt sad when i
saw how much their parents were caring for them b/c my mom
wasn't around to do the same for me, cried a bit, but i realized that even tho my mom isn't physically here with me God's with me and he'll never leave me. I cant say i felt better after that but it helped to know that. Other than that, i'm coping well, my house mates rock to the max. There are like 8 of us. We are happening man!! haha. We really wanted to go for the Hillsongs concert tmrw but it ends super late so we decided not to cause i mean we're still new to melb so we'll wait abit more. i'll try to upload pictures but no promises cause my internet is sucky.alright i'll update yall soon. just so you know i miss all yall in s'pore. i havent forgotten!

9 hours

2008-02-02T05:45:00.000-08:00

Today I spent the whole day packing and finally realized why people don't like to move house too frequently. Its the packing of all your stuff that really puts people off. my mom and i spent a whole 9 hours packing, stopping only for lunch and dinner. it's absolutely crazay. of course im not moving house or anything i'm just renting out the house while i'm studying abroad. Packing really does bring back memories cause you dig up all the old stuff you thought you lost, you didnt even remember having, and those that bring back memories like photos, notes your friends wrote to you and stuff like that. I dug out a couple of interesting things. i even found my grandparents wedding invitation (at least it looked like a wedding invitation- the contents were in chinese so yea...i think you get the drift). i never i had all these stuff in my house. its surprising what you can find in your house. That aside packing is tiring and im preetty beat so i'll blog another time :)

genesis

2008-01-04T03:08:00.000-08:00

hey hey this is my first entry! -on this blog that is.
New year just passed not long ago and for me 2008 is gna be a turning point in my life for me. 2008 is really gna be so different from the other years without my friends and family in sunny singapore. I'm soo gonna miss jasvin, all my best mates in 07733A (Ah lian yingzhi, sweet weiying and jess, crazy victoria, mental sahida, faezah who is always fighting with me over miller, ah beng shunfu, ticko guo chuan, vainpot jiekai, & our class scholar zhixiang), all my church peeps (nuo, berakah, piku!, kelsie, etc too many to name mann..), my peirce peeps! and alot more.
Part of me is happy b/c i've always wanted to go overseas to study at some point in my life. The only other thing thats taking then cheer away from going overseas is certain things i know i'll have to face when i go to Melbourne. But those are the demons that i'll have to battle with myself. And of course with God's help. i somehow know that when i trust in God every thing is gna be aright no matter how ugly things may get.
So, no matter what happens i'm just going to embrace what happens b/c worrying over it wld just be just a waste of energy. Meanwhile i wna make the most out of everyday. that means pictures, pictures, and more pictures:) haha. so dont be surprised to find candid shots of yourself! :)