Autumn

With autumn here, everything is supposed to beautiful. BUT I guess just like autumn too leaves start littering the pavements making the whole street a whirling mess when the wind blows. I guess you could say that this is totally parallel to whats happening in my life right now. There have been some pretty good memories with my housemates, autumn fest, etc. but things are happening that is making me quite pissed. I guess whatever nonsense that is happening will die down soon HOPEFULLY. ARGH! What’s wrong with the world people! I honestly have the urge to just go to the beach and scream my lungs out at moments like these. It’s really these situations that test your patience and remind you WWJD. I know its so clichéd but maybe the reason why it’s said so much is because the principle behind it is actually true. Keep it simple people- life as it is complicated enough :) I’m fine la. Just a lil frustrated at life on an occasional tuesday.

life's reflective moments

Sometimes you go around in live worrying about trivial stuff that seem so important to you (when its really not) that you need something to wake you up to reality. That is exactly what happened today. I was just going around my daily routine- school, house 3 gossip sessions, friends, and worrying about other stuff when I first heard from nikolai that Vanessa burst her blood vessel in her brain and is in a coma. I seriously thought he was shitting me when he first told me but just moments later I got another message from Rachel telling me the same thing. It was really a “WHAT?!” moment. It was pretty sudden and quite surreal. I’m still in a state where reality hasn’t really sunk in yet but I know the seriousness of the situation. I mean waking up from a coma can take years. You’ll never really know when the person will wake up and if she wakes up normal and healthy again. I think when we finally get to see her in the hospital then will reality sink in. It’s just really VERY sudden and I can’t even imagine how her parents are feeling right now. It’s these kind of moments that really make me realize how fragile life really is. You can be well one moment, but the next moment, you're in the grey area floating between life and death. I really hope she wakes up fast and she’ll be well soon. Our prayers are with you Vanessa.

Its quite unbelievable that term 2 has started already. And this term i have made up my mind to... STUDY! haha. Some of my house-mates don't believe it'd last but oh wells. lets see how it goes:)
if all goes as planned i'll be more occupied this term. in a few days time (i think) i'll be going to philip's island for planet uni camp! i'm quite excited about it AND its a miracle itself that i'm going. I guess many things have happened and i just wish for things to be less awkward.

ANYWAYS, TO ALL MY FRIENDS IN SINGAPORE, I MISS YOUU!!!!

Life sometimes surprises you in many ways. Like how recieving certain vibes can make you feel the complete opposite of of what you were feeling just seconds ago. Its just so weird that what you thought was real is actually further from the truth than you can imagine. Everything's still pretty hazy but i think i know what is going on.

Today has been an emo but reflective day. I woke up this morning to realize that almost half of my house mates and probably half of palmerston has gone back or is going back to s’pore. So I began missing Singapore really badly esp. after I talked to my best friend on msn last night. We miss each other like hell and it sucks that we can only talk over msn and can’t chill at starbucks or each others house. There’s so many things I wanna tell her but it’s so hard cause its just different when we’re not talking face to face. I actually missed s’pore (and the people there) so much that I made a list of things to eat when I get back. And guess what? PRATA is on the top of my food list! Haha. I really didn’t think I would miss home so much. ANYWAY… the reflective part of the day happened after and probably also during the service in church. All this while in Australia I always felt that ever since I left s’pore I’ve been drifting away from God. There’s never been revelation in the sermons I hear directed at what I’m going thru (even tho the sermons are superb). but today was different. I really felt that whatever happened today was God’s response to whatever I’m going thru and it’s really good because I finally feel that I’m on track with him again, like I’m in the right place again. As grace’s shirt says “peace now” :)

10 degree

I had school today at 9 in the morning and i had to get up in the freezing cold. It wasn't fun at all. It was 10 degrees in the morning and to make it worse it was raining and i had to walk to school which wasn't exactly very near to where i stay. Psych lessons made up for the shitty morning tho. It was so interesting. We learnt why men rape, about road rage and also this very new mental disorder called munchausen by proxy. its an disorder that usually affects mothers. They would harm their newborns not by bashing them or what ever but by making them injest sharp objects like razor blades, scissors, or even rat poison. psychologist are still not sure why they do that but they are guessing that these people do such things cause they crave attention esp. medical attention. Its really intruging. I don't understand why anyone would want to do that to a newborn, much less their own child. My Internet is really bad so i cant upload pics just yet. I will when its less screwy.

School officially starts today but i only had one lecture and i was done for the day. So as you can guess my day wasn't exactly "happening". Anyways i just slacked for a while, ordered my books, and waited for my friends to come home. b/c they too were bored we went to the park & school, and started cam-whoring. (will upload the pics tmrw). Oh and before i forget i have a special request from abel to upload the pics 33A took while sending me off.

I love them all, every single one of them

The thorn among the roses

the rose among the thorns (haha, sorry for being so shameless)